Eliz had to go and get herself some new shots yesterday , she had to get three and another was meds up her nose O_o  that was for the H1n1 , she has to go again in Dec to get another dose of that and I think two more shots , but anything we have to do to keep her from getting sick

other then that, life has been busy, we had a High Light bill and our other bills, so we had to ask the landlord for another week…Thank goodness he agreed to it ^_^ such a sweet landlord he is ^^

so we just have to make sure we got the money ready by next week.. other then that haven’t really done anything , other then starting to work on my story

we went and seen the brad paisley show last night..It was GREAT !!! they had to other singers there as while ^^ I got to touch two of their hands..one being brad himself ^^ hyper !!!!!!

Jimmy Wayne – some of his songs are below ^^
do you believe me now? ( he sang it)
I will ( he sang it )
I love you this much
are you ever gonna love me

I got to touch his hand !! sooo cool ^_^ he was really nice and silly, had us all laughing

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dierks bentley ( some of his songs are below ^^ )
settle for a slowdown ( sang it )
what was I thinkin ( sang it )
come a little closer ( sang it )

he was really sweet and funny..^^ I sadly didn’t get to touch his hand like I did jimmy and brad…But he still was soo close and had us laughing..more so when he came up to the song” what was I thinkin?” ^_^

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and of course we got to the host and best of all Brad himself ^_^
being so close to him was wonderful ! i even got to touch his hand ^_^ yay !!!! He also sang alot of my favorite songs , even had Chad up and singing some of them hehe
songs are below ^^ ( all he sang ^^ )

welcome to the future
catch all the fish
wrapped around
I’m going to miss her
online
I’m still a guy ( that was really fun..he had us laughing with this one..cuz he was like..I dont like this last part…cuz we arent no sissy’s lol…but he had us all sing it hehe )
waitin on a woman
The world
alcohol
she’s everything

and a course a few others..but those was the biggest ones ^_^

all together it was wonderful ^^ I had never had this much fun ^^ I was singing and waving my hands just like alot of the other fans lol … we was all screaming up a storm lol , it was fun having chad sing some of the songs lol

it was so nice getting to touch his hand..and even jimmy’s ^^ I got a nice red shirt from the show..( wasnt cheap though o-o )…. two pics..one of brad and one of Jimmy ( they didn’t have one of dierks bentley ) I also got a free bag of the show cuz ya sign up for a chance to win a car lol..didn’t care about the car..i just wanted one of the bags lol …. so it was GREAT

I am still soooo hyper..will likely be for a while now lol

also got pictures I’m going to add in a bit.. ( to my family da ) ^_^

well we took eliz to her new doctors today and she has a stomach virus , her doctor believes it should be gone within 48 hours , if not by wed we have to go back to the doctors…. though she does seem to be getting better^^ though its slow, im so glad she’s slowly getting better….

we also have to take her next Tuesday to the doctors but that’s just for a two year check up, all that is good…

But HUGE WARNING you had better watch what doctor you use !  the meds we was to get eliz today for her throwing up… well we went to pick them up at the wal mart Pharmacy and they told us they wouldnt fell them…why? because they are so dangerous for her! … to the point where if she had started to use them..they could end her in the hospital or even worse…  so thank God for the older man who wouldnt fell out the meds for us

I told my mother and grandparents, my moms going to have some big words with the doctor that was going to do it, even the man at wal mart talked to the hospital and they all told him, the man had NO right to give that type of meds for a child so young…

so my mom’s going to have some nasty words with them tomorrow and then get a lawyer ,  I’m not sure how we are going to go about with the lawyer, but I want to do what either I can do to that…man..seeing how badly he could of hurt my little girl …

so be very careful what doctor you have, or one you take your own child to

I’ve been a worried mama, about 3 am today, eliz started throwing up…she did it twice in the living room, once in the bathroom and twice on our bed before we rushed her to the doctors, she spit up again in the car (just a little) then she spit up twice before we even entered the doctors office, then she needed up throwing up yet again in the doctor’s office my poor baby girl

well they took her temp ( that i hated since the way they had to take it >_< ) not sure what way i mean? ..easy..not the ear or mouth..so only one place left O-o

well after they did that, they took blood from her, it was owful having to hold her down to let them do it, they also kept the needle in her arm..so we had to keep her from messing with it, they put some meds in the ID to help with her throwing up and some other med I forgot what it was  >>

they wanted to get a pee test from her..but she didn’t want to pee this time o_o.. so they finally let us go home… we didn’t get home until 8 am , so chad of course stayed home with us…

but all day we haven’t been able to get eliz to eat anything at all, she drinks fine but she simply won’t eat and it’s driving me crazy cuz i want her to eat something..even if it isn’t huge..at least something >< but at the same time i wont force her…

tomorrow she also has to go to her own doctors, though i’m not yet sure why, but I hope we can find out just what was wrong with her, because i am worried about her..

when chad got home we all went off and went to the mall , inside the mall is a candy store where they had these huge dolls of spongebob and dora, and we got eliz the dora doll ^^

well in the car she said dora for the very first time ^_^ so very proud of her , yet another new word ^_^

very old journal entries that was in my art da ^^

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Mon Mar 7, 2005, 5:02 PM
I havent updated in a while…and Saturday i had 2 seizure attacks…one while chad wasnt home…and the other while he was , He had to call 911 and they rushed me to the doctors..we didnt get home until like 6 am sunday morning, so that was a tiring day…chad stayed home from work on sunday..to keep an eye on me,

i did find out from the doctors that my blood suger was like 200…to high, now i have to watch my blood suger until i go to the doctors on Friday , and i really don’t like doctors …..since i have to also go next monday to get catscans done…. my mom is coming down too ^_^ so i wont have to go alone ^^..

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Sat Jul 23, 2005, 7:47 PM
Haven’t updated here in a while…Had to much stress….and not just that….But the other day….we had to put one of our cats to sleep…..No matter what we did..he just wasn’t going to get better….. and I am so very sad and heart broken right now…..the house doesnt feel the same without him in it…… and even Chad cried…. so that alone tells ya how special *dante * was…..He was more chads cat then mine……so when chad had to put him down…it was so hard….

I mean to have to watch him slowly die….had to be the worst…..I didn’t go …Cuz i knew If they couldnt help him….then they would put him to sleep…..so i stayed home…and got that call…and it took me only mins to start crying…..and I doubt there wont be a time i won’t cry when I think about him being gone…..

I know to some a cat is just a pet…but not to us…..Our cats are more then just pets….they are our babies…. we love each of them..and to lose one….hurts so very much……

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Sat Nov 26, 2005, 5:03 PM
well i went to the doctors today………..fun..:-p I got the pills from them..ONLY to find out..that wal-mart has to get a hold of them first…before i can really get them……..so that means waiting………..sighs….and i really wanted them for my headaches ><……….I also got to wait (few days if im lucky)..to know when I will be going and getting the Cat scans done………..But i also found out I have a kidney infection ( though i thought so)….but now i know..and now have meds i gotta take for the next week…and Hope that helps…if not…well im not sure then……Ive had one before…and had to take meds…and now i got it yet again…and for anyone who has had it…would know..it sucks ><………

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Thu Jun 15, 2006, 2:27 PM
I’m Really Hyper and I haven’t even left yet.. :dance: , I’m going to my moms tomorrow.. I haven’t seen Her seen Like Christmas , The only Bad thing is the stupid 6 hour drive.. and I get car sick :sick: so not really i good thing.. >_< but other then that little thing… wont be so bad….. Not really sure yet what we will do.. Either go to a water part or a movie or both.. :boogie: depending if i can talk to them into it.. or how the weather and everyone is feeling.. lol….

But the biggest thing is… Chad will be meeting my brother for the first time.. :evillaugh: now thats going to be fun.. and i get my cam… so YAY :evillaugh: pictures and vids alll week …..my mom said shes going to hide from me… but there will be no place she will be able to hide from me.. hahaha :evillaugh:

told you i was hyper ^^; and it isn’t even tomorrow yet.. lol.. I will be adding alot of Pictures to my family gallery Once i do get back though.. and most likely pictures here too ^^ if i think of anything while im away..^^..

Oh i also added some really neat pictures of Chads nepthew Benjamin Dressed as Inuyasha in my family gallery..you most go see him..he’s sooooo cute…. well I will gotta go and get everything ready for tomorrow

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Sat Jun 24, 2006, 8:20 PM
I had a really fun time at my mother ^^ we went out to eat and went and seen x-men 3 ^^ i even got my grandpa to go out with us.. and my brother.. lol… I took alot of pictures..hehe.. and took some vid… though i can’t add the vid on the computer i hate that..cuz i wanted to make home vids with movie maker …so that sucks.. >_< i can use pictures.. but i wanted vids

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Tue Jul 18, 2006, 9:45 PM
No new drawings added yet… Though I will have some added by tomorrow at the least…. .Cuz yesterday I ended up having a seizure, and ending up being sick the whole day after that… so that wasn’t any fun… >_<.. and today..though i was feeling a bit better.. i was stll a bit lighthearted and ill…. just not as bad….. not really sure Why i had one..though i have a guess.. lucky to much suger O_o.. bad me…… i over did myself , but I’m happy to be feeling better ^^

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Sun Oct 29, 2006
oh boy..where to start??.. well guess first to start off with… yeterday was a really bad day for me….. i mean it started off really good.. Like a normal day….. started off nice… getting up and doing my normal cleaning and then getting on here and started talking to stacey ^^.. and then when it gets time to Cook dinner with my mom… i did that.. then we started eating. and i started to get hot and then i couldnt feel my hand , it started to shake, and the next thing i knew… i went into a seizure , it had been a while since i went into one…. not fun… i dont remember much after that…. i remember waking up on the floor..my mom saying she can’t with this..O_o… my poor mom was cryin so badly… chad was by my legs keeping my hands from moving.. and my fopfop (grandpa)…on my other side with a wet rag to try to cool me down… and gary was standing up somewhere..not sure where o_O….. but i sure hated all of it.. waking up unable to move..though fopfop said i was moving a bit..though i didn’t feel like it….i couldn’t even speak for a sec… so for anyone who doesn’t have seizures …..be glad…. they aren’t fun……..sighs…..

also found out that chad’s uncle John heath has got so bad that he is barely holding on…. I mean he was in the hosptial (and we didn’t even know until today)…. but was brought home….but he’s so bad….. they are getting things ready for his death o_O…. how bad u got to be…….for your family to get ready for that?????……i think thats so sad..:( but he’s in his 70’s , so not really shocked his heath has got so bad….but its still so sad…. hes a really sweet man..

and to top that off…..my grandma had to put one of her dogs down…though that may not seem that much to most….But to grandma.. who loves her pets soo much.. it hurt her so badly… and this one was one shes had for a really long time..14 yrs i believe… she even has a little pet grave yard for her pets O_o.. thats how much she loves her pets…….

so I’ve had a bit of sad news.. and one bad thing happen the last two days …………….. sighs..

But There maybe some good news…. On Nov 11 me and chad maybe going to a anime convention ^^ its called Shikkaricon ,

Shikkaricon Bucks County Community College : newtown, pa is where im at.. ^^ or will be going.. they even have a site for it [link] ^^ will know for sure if we are going ^^ and we are hoping to get costumes too.. im of course going to go as inuyasha :giggle: ….. chad will go as one of the chars from Alchemist ( as roy mustang) … But anyways.. me and chad are going tomorrow to make sure he doesnt work on that day.. i said take off darn it..lol…i want to go to this..badly..lol…..hehehe.. but anyways.. thats all the updates……….. other then that i do got alot of new drawings to add….. i will likely add them tomorrow some time… ^^ just wanted to let yall know whats going on…..

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Sat Dec 2, 2006, 3:06 PM
I had a really bad day yesterday… I went into a sezure >< and when i came out of it.. I had such a bad headache and felt really sick…. momma said my sezure lasted almost 7 mins.. and it never last that long O_o…… we called both my doctors.. and neither could really give me anything… all they said was.. If my headache didnt get better….. I’d have to go to the ER.. But i took something for it.. and laid down and my also took me new sezure meds.. i was going to wait until sunday..to match my other ones…but didnt make it O_o……. this sezure med put me to sleep..O_o.. so i slept it all off.. and i feel so much better now ^^.. but i still hate having sezures ><.. thats one reason i cant even drive.. IF i wanted too… I’d have to go like a year without having one….Then try for one..but of course mine would be different then some..cuz of the sezures… darn evil things ><

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Wed Jan 17, 2007, 6:40 PM
well i went to the docs , and my doc told me that she’s pretty sure I am pregant..^^ but i did the blood test to make double sure…but i wont get that back until tomorrow O_o…so thats another day of waiting >_<… but i did find out If i am…that i should be fine at having one ^^.. the only thing she was worried about was my sezure meds.. so If i am… I have to go update my meds to something not as strong….. *crosses my fingers that i am * ^_^…. will update again tomorrow with whatever news i hear…

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Thu Jan 18, 2007, 5:18 PM
yay!!!!!!!! I found out today.. and It was as i thought.. IM GOING TO BE A MOMMA!!!!!!!! :w00t: :giggle: :dance: I’m soooo happy ^_^ On the 29 I gotta go see my doc again.. so i should be able to see just how far along i am… then the 31 I gotta go meet my case worker (she helps with to keep my meds going..and get other stuff )…. I really got to get my med card going again O_o..i got so many pills now lol… i just iron pills today.. ^^ Tomorrow im going to go get one of them baby books that helps u through the 9 months.. ^^ and gotta get a book with baby names in it ^_^ I really can’t wait to know what they are..boy or girl ^^.. but i still got a lil bit before i will know that..lol….but im sooo hyper and happy ^^

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Sun Feb 4, 2007, 9:03 PM
yay , i found out just how far i am , found out feb 2, 2007 , i am 8 weeks and one day (or was one day on that day lol )….. i got two pics of my sweet lil baby that u can get the link below to go see them ,we even got to see the babys heart beating.. it was sooo beautiful to see… i can’t wait until we can hear the heart beating.. and when i can feel the baby move.. ^^

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Sun Apr 8, 2007, 2:35 AM
well what can i say im still to slow at putting up new pics and havent drawn lately either O_o but the other day..i had the biggest scare… i went to my docs like i gotta do every month now.. and they tried to hear the babies heart beat..but they couldnt find it.. i was ready to have a breakdown.. they had to do a really fast altsound.. and thank God they seen the heart beat.. and i got a really sweet look at my baby ^^… i will have to add the pic later.. by next month i should know what the baby is ^^ yay i cant wait to find out

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Mon Apr 23, 2007, 4:49 PM
sooo happy… I felt the baby move :giggle: I thought i was feeling it at least a week..but i wasnt really sure.. well the day before i knew for sure it was the baby kicking ^^ the baby also kicked that night..so chad got to feel it ^^… and me and chad went to the cirus yeterday ^^ and 10 mins into it..i felt the baby start to kick…guess the baby was enjoying it lol…

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.Mon Jun 4, 2007, 2:10 AM
I should be in bed lol..but instead im updating with yet another computer drawing ^^ im starting to really love computer coloring lol so here is yet another one ^_^

oh a really Great thing happened……me and chad brought this sound thing that will let us listen to the babies heartbeats at home..as while as hicups and kicking….and last night we tried it out.. its still to soon for it to pick up on the heartbeat…but we was able to hear the baby hicup :giggle: that was so darn cute ^^ i can’t wait to hear it again ^_^

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Tue Jun 5, 2007, 8:21 PM
last night i was listening to my baby have the hicups again.. was sooo darn cute..my belly was moving like crazy.. so the baby didn’t like having hicups :giggle: made the baby move cuz of it lol…. sweet lil memory i so love ^_^

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Sat Jul 21, 2007, 4:15 PM
still really busy here O_o plus im not really into drawing at the min.. im kind of leaning towards dolling again.. (at the min lol)…. but really real life has just been so busy…i went to the doctors the day before and my blood pressure was a bit to high..so they sent me to the hopstail o_O i had to give blood, and then they checked out the babies heart beat..and to see if my blood presure went down.. it all came out all right in the end ^^…. but now i have to have a non-stress test down two times a week >_> and the second of this coming month i got to my brain doctors….so im pretty busy..chad also has to get his car worked on..cuz we wasnt able to get a car we wanted and tried for… so now its getting his car fixed….and we will have to get married sometime next month..but that will be easy.cuz we are just going to court to do it.. so as u can see.. live here is busy O_o and that doesnt even count the fact the baby should be here by sept 13.. so then my life gets real busy lol……but thats ok ^^ i cant wait to see and hold my baby

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Mon Jul 23, 2007, 9:04 PM
soooooo happy ^_^ when i went to do my non-stress test , i was able to look at the baby again ^^ and the doctor said he’s about 85 to 90% sure the baby is a GIRL!!!! sooo happy ^^ chad couldnt stop smiling when we left the doctors either

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Sat Sep 15, 2007
haven’t updated in a while…but i got a big reason…my lil girl was born ^_^ she was born on sept 11 , at 9:13 am , i had to spend 3 days there so i got to go home on the day she had first met to be born lol, she’s a beautiful little girl ^_^ and i love her to death..i will add pics of her to my family da soon ^_^….. i also haven’t been on as much..cuz she wakes up all hours crying and so me and chad dont get to sleep so good now..and the only time i got to rest is when she’s asleep and thats doing the time id usally be on >_> i think the only real time i can be on all day like i use to be is on sunday..when chad is home with me all day….so we’d both be able to take care of her… so thats the only real down part of having a newborn…but at the same time.i wouldnt change it for the world ^_^ shes my lil angel ^^

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Dec 22, 2007, 2:49 AM
so annoyed >_> i truly hate the keystone that was covering my meds..now they won’t cover them since eliz was born..who knows why >_> only that i cant get the plan i was on before and they put me on a different one… darn idots..i needed it since my seziures pills cost me 300 dallors a month..>< so chad had to pay 80 dallors for just one week.. >_> darn i really hate that company , now i gotta find a different one that will cover my meds..That i truly need >< so to say the least.. im annoyed ..very badly >_>

anyways.. on a plus side.. Little miss eliz is starting to go more on her side..If she would figure out how to move one arm..she’d be on her belly :giggle: , she’s doing her baby talk all the time lol..its so cute though ^^ she has started to notice her her feet and thats really cute to watch ^_^

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Fri Apr 11, 2008, 1:58 PM
Been a busy mother o-o.. even though eliz has two tiny lil front teeth (so darn cute .hehe)… they are still coming in, so its not easy when she’s at this teething stage , so some sleepless nights , But im hoping she will start feeling much better soon… also docs here and there, she had to go the other day..for more shots. im glad when she goes again..she wont have to have the shots this time around ,

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Tue May 27, 2008, 5:53 PM
I got 4 new chapters of Loving darkness added to MM , Their is now 14 chapters and I got to add 4 more ( that i will do later today or tomorrow) i also added One of the drawings, a head shot of night wolf… I got to draw more chars so i can add them ^_^

I also had a Huge scare last night, eliz had to go to the hospital, Cuz she seemed to be bleeding when Chad changed Her, The doctors Looked at her and Think it maybe cuz of a rash she has, we just have to watch her and if it happens again. we have to take her back I hope we never have to , other then that she does seem to be fine, her normal happy go crazy self :sigh:

we also are still waiting to see rather my grandpa (kenny) can help us with the rent here (just me..thats alot of money to >< ) If he does help..then thats great we stay right here..If not..then we gotta either move back to our old place..or maybe fla… but not really sure just yet , i hate having to wait though >_<

so as you can see..we got alot going on at the minute, and the trying to get my stupid careworker to help me with my pills , they cost us 94 dallors a week..>_< and thats just way to much money..but at the same time..I need my pills >_< darn them pills that cost me soo much

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Thu Jun 12, 2008, 2:08 PM
I uploaded Eliz’s crawling Vid to my main site..and you can view it here on my space [link] I just hope myspace lets it stay on there, cuz I can’t get it on my doman >< so If it does stay. she’s so darn cute..and im silly in it..ask stac lol

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Tue Jun 17, 2008, 12:29 AM
Well we finally know for sure we will be moving back to the old house by July 14th , Still not sure about what type of net we will have..I don’t really wanna go back to dail up or If we will have highspeed down there.. chad has to call his family soon, so maybe They will be able to tell him

We started packing our stuff last night, and we don’t really Got alot ourselfs..now my mom and them got a whole lot of stuff..and I do mean alot O_o…

I will have to help my mom pack her stuff (thats how much they got )…

what I really hate is, all my family..every last one is going to be back in fla, while Im still here in pa…Though we are hoping within a year we will be moving down their…( I really hope so)

I know my mom will come back down ere for eliz’s birthday on sept 11 and then In dec I have to fly down there ( not to happy about that..since im really really scared of flying)

But i really do want to see my family and its really the only way…. o-o

so been pretty busy getting all that stuff ready and then of course their is the stuff we have to do once we move back up there..sighs

could be way I can’t seem to draw..or even doll..and usally I can doll without any trouble, but I can’t seem to right now… >> i really hate that too

I’m also working on enjoying this company where it will only cost me like 30 dallors a month for my pills.. instead of like 100 ever week >< they was just so much money… so after i see my doctor and he signs the papers I will be able to start getting them ^_^

so im really happy about that ^_^

on other happy news.. Eliz is doing great ^^ her silly baby talk is so cute..she’s so cute crawling and can even see another tooth coming in on the top..so she will have two on the bottom..one on the top

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Tue Jul 15, 2008, 2:15 PM
I’m finally back !!! yay :clap: though im kind of cheating to get my net..^_~ but whatever works for me..only problem with doing it this way.. is I lose it..ask stac lol..i go on and off on yahoo it isnt even funny no more lol…right in the middle of rping ld to >_< darn evil thing !!!

I tell yall id go nuts without it though..i mean we got no tv.no net (of our own lol)..and no phone O_o all that is mainly the only thing left we got to do here….But we are pretty sure since chad had to change jobs from the other one to this one..he won’t get paid this weeks pay..so we cant get them >< we are hoping for his other check to get in the mail…since i got pills this week..70 dallors to >> and we don’t got that much money for them either…

The others im getting i dont know when they will get in the mail…darn…im hoping really soon…

This place is alright..but i miss my momma and the others ” sighs ” they are moving back to fla I think this thurs..I will be the only one..in my whole family still here in pa…so i really hate that…though my moms coming down in sept for eliz’s first birthday…and we are going down in dec for christmas but i still miss them though..

we are moving down there in a year..so im happy about that…

oh yea..one bad thing that happened when my brother and grandpa came with us to help us move..we was in the car..my grandpa in the uhaul and my brother in his trunk…bubba’s darn trunk breaks down .. me and chad went ahead of them to the next stop since it was so hot outside and we have no ac in the car..so we went into one of the stores where it was cool….bubba had to very..and i mean very slowly drive it in the side to get it into the turn…then we all had to stay at a hotel that night.. Then bubba had to get them to come pick up his trunk to work on it….so bubba and fopfop had to stay the night with us here….chad was able to take them there the next day after they got it done…it cost my brother alot..and I mean ALOT of money to get it fixed…but i heard from my mom..it broke again..>_< so my brothers far from happy..

on a bit of a plus side of all thats happened…miss eliz has more cute little teeth coming in..she has her two bottom ones already..now she has her two canenines coming in ( i think thats what you would call them lol)…it also looks like she has are two main front ones coming in..so she has her moments where she has to have meds to help..

I like being here only cuz we have windows (didnt at the other place in our room)….so she gets alot of sun….and alot of room to play on the floor, she really Loves that..

well what else is going on..umm..well me and stac started ld over again…darn it..we got to stop doing that lol..but we never do….we are sooo bad…but then again..dont care lol

I think thats all thats been going on so far..unless i think of something else lol..never know with me really lol

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wed Aug 6, 2008, 10:37 PM
eliz took her first steps ^_^

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Tue Sep 16, 2008, 12:21 PM
yay finally was able to upload something in here.. I’ve been trying for almost a week..stupid thing wouldnt let me do nothing >_< I think it maybe because I’m being forced to use AOL dail up right now.. aghh I HATE it >_< but anyways lets see whats been going on here o-o

well was able to add the three new drawings ^^ each for the 100 theme challenge

my Lil girl turned 1 years old on sept 11 ^_^ she had such a blast with that cake lol…she had it all princess themed , even though we wanted to do it spongebob..cuz she adores spongebob..but couldnt get all the stuff that was needed..so we went princess..but thats alright we are going to do spongebob down at my grandma’s

I went and got myself a real evil cold >_< it started the day before, but I’ve been taking stuff so its slowly getting better..

and yeterday we lost power all day…that was a real pain in the butt >> chad stayed home so he could watch over eliz while I was sick…seeing how not good being home alone with a baby when sick and no power….but we finally got our power back at 11 pm.. what a pain that was >> but least we got it back ^^

well chad gave his two weeks notice last week so hes only got the rest of this week to work , then he doesn’t work anymore..and we start really packing and working on getting the uhaul , and should be moving and going to my grandma’s by the end of this month

Last week was such a pain as while…I was using chads computer and I got a virus in it..(and yeap it was my fault..) thats what happens when i download something i dont know what it is ” sighs” but it had to be restarted..and thats why I lost the good net..and had to go to dail up aol >> but what makes it worse is….i went to try to use my brand new laptop and two days later..that one crashes..and that wasn’t my fault >> we got a new vista cd hoping maybe the windows just needed to be redo..and that didn’t work…so its going to cost be about 70 for a new hard drive for it… >_< aghh laptops are being such a pain >_<

also If you are a doller (pixel artist).. you’d know about the club Fractured Fairytales [link] You’d would know they are sadly shutting down…It is going to be really sad to see them go, But no reason to keep doing it if u lost the heart to do it… but still sad to see them going… I am a member of a few others, the gathering and moonlight garden.. and I’m thinking of joining some more… The main ones im in are on my doll site right now..^^ so you can find the links there ^^ im always under ” serenawolf” so not to hard to find me lol

I am working on a new doll… stac (hellcat) wants me to doll me and her.. so I am ^_~ im almost done with it as while..mainly just the hair to do and a few Lil details..then yay all done lol

well thats all I can think of at the moment lol…

a hey to all the FF members though :wave: least i was able to find some of yall on here lol

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Mon Sep 22, 2008, 1:13 AM
it looks like miss eliz has some more teeth coming in ^^ we think its at least 2 maybe even 4..but we can see one for sure thats on the bottom..right now..I’m updating all her baby book and trying to make sure I add everything lol

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Mon Sep 29, 2008, 11:06 PM
well Haven’t dolled or drawn in a while, I’ve been so very busy getting ready to move now…But yeterday me and chad’s brother had a good fight on the phone…. well to be able to explain that..have to tell you why….

Chad’s brother tells us IF chad quiet’s his job (gving the two weeks notice).. He will then give us the rest of the money…BUT then he has to go to tx…and we call him on the phone telling him we need the money..and He dares to say we can’t have the money Until the U-haul is in the yard..and I’m thinking NO way…we want the money first

so me and him get into one big fight on the phone about it..and I mean a big one…mind you I’m not one for fighting or even yelling..and I dont like cussing (unless its online..dont ask lol)…but anyways.. He got me that mad I did cuss and told him we wasn’t going no there…and he said we will see..then starting talking about how im a parasite, and that alone got me mad…but what really got me mad isn’t that he called me that but that he DARED to say I’m just like my mama, and HE doesn’t even know my mom !! can you say I was pissed off or what????? I mean I don’t much care what anyone says about me..BUT my mama is a whole another story !!

so I really went down on him..but He just kept saying I was a parasite and all that stuff.. so I was SOOO mad… he just kept on and on..and i told him his wife is just like me..at not doing anything or working..and he’s like HE doesn’t want her to work ( isnt that gay???? ), But He wont’ even let his boys go to school.. ( they are home schooled)…and saids its cuz of the way schools are..and I told him thats why their is private schools..and he said he can’t cuz its People Like me that they dont have the money… AS IF !!! That man spends 400 to 500 on junk cars..and I do mean junk ones , so he has alot of room…Id so kick his butt IF he was brave enough to be here..but of course he’s not….so we had a good fight..and He hangs up on me..( really what a big man..to hang up on a woman?) that tells u how big a sissy He is….

well I talked to my mama and told her all he said..and gave her his number ^_~ a…yay to my mama !!!! she let him have it real good ( don’t piss off my mama lol)…. well I couldn’t give great details of their talk… only that He said he doesn’t trust me and chad won’t spend the money and still stay here.. AS IF I don’t want a thing to do with HIM and his sorry wife..!!!!

well my mama told me He’d let lisa give us the money on tuseday ( tomrrow) if we was gone by wed…so IF she really gives us that money…we are sooo getting out of here by wed, hopefully by wed night..cuz I want to get away from all of them and be back in fla with my family..and I’m telling you, me and chad are not going to look back when we are gone from here !!!!

so as you can tell.. I have been really stressed and MAD l!!!

lets Hope we can really get out of here on wed..really want to >_< so very badly…

I will not have any net for a Little while, though I’m hoping to use my mama’s laptop every once in a while to be able to update here and their..and of course talk to my friends ^_^

well anyway on the UP side..we let eliz feed herself for the first time the day before..she made a big mess, but it was soo cute to watch her do it lol.. kids are so darn cute..and make things worth even the hardest time..I’m happy when I see her smile..^_^

well I better get going..I still have some things I have to do here and there ..so hope to talk to everyone soon

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Wed Oct 29, 2008, 7:14 PM
well we took eliz to the docs and we found out eliz is a anemia, her Iron level is really Low , so we have to start being more careful and make sure she’s eating the right things for it to go up and she goes back in 3 weeks so they can check and make sure its normal..If not..she will have to be on meds to help it,

she also has a ear probelm ( most likely cuz of the cold she had)..and she has meds for that , that she will have for the next 10 days to help her

well other then that she’s in really good health ^^

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Fri Dec 5, 2008, 1:35 AM

well where to start ? well first I’d like to give a hug :glomp: to stac for not being on the last few days , It’s been really crazy the last few days with chad having lost his job and now us back out again trying to find him another one >_<

other then trying to find chad a new job and me working on one.. I got ALL the twlight books!!! :hyper: I adore the whole series so far !!! ^^ I’m on eclipse right now and loving it..i can’t wait to get to the last one….and If others know it..she was starting on another..Though that was put on hold at the moment..I read about it from some sites I vist..mostly One that I LOVE.., the one I found out the other book was her main site though [link] , but the one I really love is the one about bella and edward [link] , it does tell you about the book thats on hold ” midnight sun” I hope she really starts on it again though ^_^ I really wanna read the one with his thoughts ^^

also already hearing about them wanting to make another movie following twilight by doing ” new moon”.. Oh i sure hope they do too lol

anyways before I got twilight crazy ( trust me..I havent yet lol)….yeterday me and chad went and got a Little Kitten..cuz we thought kagome most be really lonely without someone with her..so we got a free kitten..they aren’t really getting along..but thats no shock O_o..we are hoping they start though or we’d have to return it..and i dont really want to do that….

well on sat me and chad are hoping to go to a christmas thing they are having down here ^^ if all goes while…^_^

hmm.. well that’s all I can think of at the moments that’s going on lol…if i can think of anything..i will update when I do O-o

eliz has another cute Little tooth coming in !! its on the bottom..so far i don’t see any others..O-o..so far being the main words here lol

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Sun Dec 7, 2008, 11:42 PM
my heart is really heavy right now, i am very depressed, really I’m past that, I had a best friend i grew up since we was both born, I was like a year or two older then he was, he had always been there for me, I mean we did everything together, he was my first Kiss, my best boyfriend, my first love, and as i was looking online in hopes of finding him , i learned something that changed everything for me, I learned that my best friend ‘ brian givens” was died it doesn’t say how only that he died on oct 16 , 2005 , it said he was only 20 years old, now i am trying to find his family again, i want to see them, to learn what happened

first I aunt in a car crash, only to know now I have lost my most beloved friend I truly hate it, not knowing,

I didn’t want to believe it, but I know it’s true no matter how painful it is

so now im so very sad, all i picture now is his face, his laugh , the happiness i got when he was near, only to know now i will never get to see any again , i’ll never get to sit and talk about old days ,
i didnt even know if i ever crossed his mind after i moved, i know he crossed mine, so many times,

I still remember the last time I seen him.both really, the first when i moved from my old house, he was starting to hang out witht a boy i hated…then when we moved and came to visit i was so happy to see him…he had got way more taller then me..we sat up in his room just talking..and i did notice he still had old pictures of the two of us together , that suprsed me, but also made me happy,

now i dont know if i did cross his mind again, even for even once he thought of me and all the happy memories we shared…

ones of him chasing me down the road pulling on my backbag , riding bikes to school together, walking down railroads, hanging out in his old tree house, when he use to climb into my window in the morning scaring me lol …..

so many happy memories with me, there was truly very few sad or bad ones, so i am always happy when i thought of him, now I see not only our memories, but the fact…we can never have anymore

i guess i better stop now, im crying now, and i know I’d keep talking and talking if i didnt stop now

but thanks to anyone who bothers to read this journal, i simply needed to talk , to say what i was thinking and feeling

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Fri Dec 26, 2008, 2:24 AM
Merry christmas everyone !!! ( or belated christmas by my 1 am clock lol ) I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas ^^… mine wasn’t to bad I got alot of clothes O_o..one happened to be a spongebob nightwear o_o..my grandma has bad humor lol…she got it cuz my daughter loves spongebob..and wanted me and her to match in nightwear lol..now im going to have to deal with her messing with my outfit lol…..i got a few other things as while..and a 100 dallors from my mom..and that alone will likely have to go to getting eliz stuff lol..

christmas eve , i went out with mama, eliz and gary ( my mom’s bf)…to look at christmas lights.. I have Never in my life missed going to look at christmas lights on christmas eve..and I’m going to make sure eliz never does

speaking of eliz..she is doing great..she has about 12 cute lil teeth now…so cute ^_^… she also does the cutest thing..she saids hello everytime the phone rings..we all love that..she also loves to clap :giggle: she’s doing such cute things here and there now, I am simply Loving to watch her learn new things ^_^

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Thu Jan 1, 2009, 9:56 PM

eliz has learned to get out using the doggy door o_o….one moment she’s there..next she’s out ,
she also figured out how to get on my grandma’s bed ..cuz she has Little dog stairs so her dogs can get up..and eliz did it today O-o….so two crazy things on new year day

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Sat Jan 31, 2009, 12:03 PM
today is a really sad day for the house…even though my grandmother has Many dogs..today we lost one , her name was lady, I couldn’t really explain what she had..But the doctors had only gave her three to six months to live..It all started with her leg that got really bad…and it slowly just spread..The last few days she had barely been able to really move..couldnt eat.or go to the bathroom , for the last two days she couldn’t even eat..so we knew she wouldn’t last much longer , so today they was going to take her and put her to sleep…..but nanny said she fell asleep and died in her sleep so its a pretty sad day..I mean we knew we would have to put her down..but its still sad that she’s gone…

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Fri Feb 6, 2009, 6:15 PM
Today I send out my love to brians family on this day…today should of been a wonderful day of brian getting another day older , instead I have to wish him a happy birthday from heaven, and Hope he can hear me as I tell him I miss and love him and i yell out happy birthday to you !

when i first moved from fla to pa , I didn’t talk to him again, I was like alot of people, i can just do it another day..he’s always going to be there when I finally can call, write or show up, it never crossed my mind that he wouldn’t be there, Then i find it online..the truth i didn’t want to believe, that he was gone, having left to go to heaven where he’s likely playing his silly pranks , I know there are alot of people out there that don’t believe in heaven and such, but at this moment. I don’t much care IF you dont believe, cuz i know that’s where he’s at

when i finally came back to fla to live here with my grandma i thought I’d finally look him up, only to truly know he’s gone, that my very best friend was no longer with me

we grew up since we was both born ( im like 3 yrs older then he was)..so i grew up with him lol…for 16 long years he was my shadow, we did everything together, went everywhere together, we was unbreakable , then when i first moved i didn’t really see him again, but one other time before i moved to pa,

but he’s always on my mind, truly he’s always been on it…. I always talked to chad about him, though i know now it annoyed chad..but i couldn’t help myself, thinking and talking about brian has always made me happy, he’s always been such a special person in my life, one who’s smile and laughter warmed my heart,

he’s been my best friend, my first love, my protecter and life with him not here is painful,

, its different when you simply can call or message them..cuz you know they are there, but when they are truly gone you feel a part of you go with them ,

I had always thought when I returned here, we’d be like our old selfs, being silly and growing old together, i wanted to be here when we both hit our 30’s , I know I’d of been the first and he’d of picked on me for it , thats just how he was, but I loved him for that

and even knowing he’s gone..that its a sad day..i feel peaceful…almost happy…I think..no I know it’s because brian is here with me right now..He’s the reason I feel the way I do, I feel only happiness when I think of him.. and i always will

so to brain happy birthday! I love and miss you

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Mon Mar 2, 2009, 11:49 PM
The biggest thing ever happened to today.. I got married !!!! ^_^ finally i went and got myself married lol… we did it at the court house and my mama came too, ^^ it was fast but nice, mama cried a bit lol..even though it wasn’t a really BIG all out wedding..after that we went and got pictures taken..I’m hoping to add them within the next day or so…im trying to get photoshop CS3 back on my computer.. or at least CS4 ..but for some reason the trails not downloading for me ><

But anyways…after we did the pictures , we went home and changed then me, chad and eliz went out…we went and visted my grandpa…who is staying with my uncle…so chad got to meet my uncle david for the first time and two of my cousins and after that we went to one of our favorite food places called” big daddy’s ” i really love that place hehe….

we really didnt do anything else other then that…mama said she’d watch eliz on sunday though so me and chad can go to the movies , so least there is something we will be able to do ^^

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Tue Mar 31, 2009, 7:59 PM
im still having trouble with my darn da >< I know have to do CTRL and f5 just to get it to work >< its a pain but at least its making it work so cuz whatever works >_< who knows how long this mess its going to do it…but its so annoying but i am glad it makes it work ><

let me see…hmm on the plus side..I am getting closer to getting the dragon’s den new layout done so me and stac can start working on it ^^ I’ve also made two new bases ( that i will likely add here )

Oh and the biggest I got my ears done ! I’ve had them done so many times in the past >< but I wanted to do it again..This time is well…cuz i wanted to wear my twilight earrings lol so I went and got my ears done ^_^… the earrings are just tiny little blue ones..that happen to be eliz’s birth color…^^ … now just waiting six weeks before i can even remove them…sometimes i dont notice them..sometimes i do ( like when eliz hits them at night >< ) and having to watch out for my hair >> but I love that i did it ^^

Hope i can update again soon..we got storms coming up until like friday..and flood warnings as while O_o so if i dont get on..then we know its cuz of my net >>

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Wed Apr 1, 2009, 5:41 PM
been pretty busy today O-o i got up had to do my normal stuff, like house cleaning, Then me and mama had to take Patches ( my cat) to the vet and then we went and got my grandma some stuff for her birthday tomorrow..and went and picked patches up and came home…

shortly after we got home i went outside to feed the kittens and mama brought eliz outside..and next think you know eliz is playing in the water that was left behind by the rain last night..and I started to play with her lol..along with my mama…eliz got sooo wet, but she loved it and I ended up getting wet cuz i fell :giggle: but over all it was alot of fun …I haven’t played out there like that in a really Long time O-o so it was alot of fun ^_^

Im not even trying to april fool anyone cuz I can’t think of one anyways lol…. so hope everyone had fun apriling fooling someone else lol

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Thu Jul 9, 2009, 5:18 PM
eliz used her potty for the very first time

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: Sun Aug 16, 2009, 1:20 AM
well I said I would update what’s going on in my life ^^..well the first BIG thing that happened, was last night, eliz did a flip all by herself ^^ so proud of her,

I also orded me brad paisley tickets ^_^ so I’m really hyper about that, I got advance tickets cuz I’m a member of his site, and so I was able to get them before they come out for sell ^_^ though I’m not sure just how good the seats are going to be O_o that’s the only thing that i hate not knowing o-o

I am also going to be applying for a Job at some are’s, two gamestops that are not to far from my home ^^ I hope I do get that Job

but the biggest thing is we are working on getting a place to stay, we found this one we Love but we have having a bit of trouble getting it >_< because to get the lights on, it will cost us 500 alone, and rent itself is 500 , so that’s 1000 and that doesnt count doing the water and stuff >> so we are trying to make a deal with the landlord about doing 500 now and slowly working out the other , and he’s such a really nice old man, so I’m hoping he will do that deal we had in mind

cuz I still have to worry about my grandfather not having a place >_< so all we can do is wait and hope he’s able to call by later today ( since its 1 am right now )

will update though when I know rather or not we are getting it or not ” fingers crossed”

edit : also me and stac are slowly doing a rp thats part of LD, its when fire wolf was still a child and he first meets his father Blake ^^ so cute to see how they was together before everything went wrong

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Mon Aug 17, 2009, 7:46 PM

Real BIG news ^_^ the first is eliz learned a new word today ! she learned to say ” two” the number lol, she first said it for her daddy ^^

we also got news on the place we wanted ^_^ the landlord is willing to make the deal we had in mind !! so we are simply waiting for gary’s money to get here so we can give it to him, my brother is giving us 500 towards getting the lights on, Though if gary’s money doesnt get there tomorrow we may have to use bubba’s 500 to do the rest and garys money towards getting the Lights, either way we got it ^^

nanny gave us 300 to put towards getting the water and windstream ( it does phone/net/tv ) so we should be able to get all that, though not sure how Long on each day it will take O_o But we do know for sure we got the place ^_^ so happy about that

I’ve also been working on the banner for my doll site’s new layout, finally o-o though it’s still slow but at least I’m finally starting to work on it again , I’m hoping I will get the yearning to doll again, i miss doing that O_o but all I can do is wait and see

my theme challenge is below, all LD really, I’m thinking of also doing it using my other chars from my own story, just have to wait and see ^_^

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Thu Sep 10, 2009, 5:21 PM
Eliz’s birthday is tomorrow ^_^ she will be 2 years old ^^ it’s such a shock to think she’s already two, it really doesnt feel like its been that long O_o… but of course that does happen , she’s still to young to really have a big party or anything, but we are going to go to this Food place called ” big daddy’s ” its like a family place, its a more deer(hunter) like theme to it, , even the place is made of a special type of wood, and I love it really, They have a person that comes up dressed as a deer.. eliz really loved it when the person came out dressed up, so we thought to have her party there, we gotta go there by 8 pm to meet with my mother, grandmother , gary ^^

once chad gets off work, we have to go get her birthday cake ( spongebob one ) and we will be taking it there, and all share it then, I thought of going to get her a new outfit to where as while ^^ nothing really big cuz she will likely make a mess Lol

but i am happy my little girl is turning 2 yrs old already^^

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